We’ll skip the goodbyes.

Woke up early in the morning, just to hear this song playing in the radio. With my eyes still half open, I started humming to this song, with flashbacks of me and Han together, through happy and bad times. those days where I sang this song to myself, knowing how much Han loves me so much; just makes everything seem so worthwhile.

Then reality starts to hit me; Han is no longer mine. He doesn’t want me anymore in his life; and that I am nothing more than just a figment of his past. The moment I realized what I just realized, tears starts to well up in my eyes. I started sobbing like a small kid who have just lost his toys.

I’m so sorry.

I didn’t mean to be so weak.

I didn’t mean to be this vulnerable.

throughout my whole life, no one else but Han can make me go weak on my knees. My heart still skips a beat, each time he looks into my eyes. I still get sweaty palms each time I see him walking towards me. He was bestfriend, my baby, my sweetheart and my future soul mate. We had planned a future together but this, this had to happen. And no one else but me is to be blame for all these. I swear I’m not going to forgive myself for this. 

I never thought I’m gonna say this in this manner; but it really saddens me to know that I’m going to miss everything that will and might happen in Han’s life. I don’t wamt to miss a thing; I really don’t want to miss a thing. But I know the time has come for me to bid farewell to my sweetheart Farhan.. Goodbye, Farhan. Try not to remember me from now on, cause I don’t want to my shadows to bring you down. Just like I did when we’re still together.    

I wanted to stay forever; but forever never really exist.