We’ll skip the goodbyes.

There comes a point in your life when you realise who matters, who never did and who won’t anymore and who always will.  

First and foremost, thank you elfy. Thank you so much for talking to me just now. I know it’s not easy for you to tell me every single bit of your past. Just by looking at your eyes I know you’re still deeply hurt by it. But from your eyes, I can also tell that you cant wait to start a new life. With that someone you’re deeply in love with. For that, i wish you all the best elfy. Thank you also for the comfort you gave me just now. Somehow your presence gave me serenity. Thank you so much. I’ll try to rise again. I’ll try to pick up these broken pieces which Han left me. It might take a while, but I promise I’ll be back. But not anytime soon, I guess. 

I feel so lost, so broken, ……but at the same time I feel so loved. I don’t know that a lot of people loves me so much. Shah, the kambengs, Julie, elfy, sufi, shid. God, there’s still a whole lot of names I left out.. Thank you guys, for being there for me. If not for you guys, I don’t know what state I will be in right now.  

I cant promise I wont cry again, but I can promise you guys that I wont let myself be weak. I know for myself that I’m strong. It’s just that when it comes to the matters of my heart, I cant seem to control myself. I will start to lose control of everything. 

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I’m on the phone with Han right now. He still calls me ‘yang’. My hearts beating really fast right now. God, I miss him so much.