I don’t think I have time to post anything later on. I will for sure be busy helping out at my uncle’s wedding and then after a few hours of sleep, I will be off to the airport. That’s when I will bid farewell to my family members =/
I’m going off really soon. I don’t know whether or not I can still access to wordpress/ msn/ friendster there. If there’s access to wordpress, I guess this post will be of no use. If there isn’t, then this could be the last post in 3 months time.
In case there’s no wordpress, I shall take this “moment” to seek forgiveness from all you people out there. I know a lot have been happening lately, and it’s without a doubt I have hurt some people along the way. I can’t possibly say that it’s my entire fault, but I feel that there’s still a need for me to say sorry. Fir’s right. Things happen for a reason. Maybe perhaps one day I will see what exactly the reason is…
Take good care of yourself guys. Especially to my kambengs, try not to forget me yarh? Even if you’re trying to forget me, try not to forget me too much please.. As much I hate to leave, I can’t wait for this OSIP to start. Really. I’m starting a new life now; who wouldn’t excited about it right?
So yep, till then people. Miss me a lot ok? Heh =)
Tickets- Check
Flu vaccine- Check
Visa- Check
Luggage- NOT CHECK
Print pictures- NOT CHECK
US dollar- NOT CHECK
So I officially have 2 days left to say goodbye to my love ones. 2 days left to hug each and everyone goodbye. 2 days left to justify myself for the last time. 2 days left. And I still have yet to pack my stuffs. Oh boy, am I so dead.
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I just had my flu vaccine just now. April said that it won’t be that painful, it’s like an ant’s bite she said. Oh boy was she wrong. It was even worse than ant’s bite. I could barely look at the needle and my mum, instead of holding my hand, she laughed at me instead. Ish ish.
Soon after that, I rushed off to buy my travel insurance. I was so freaking pissed off with the one who attended to me just now. He mistook me as my dad’s wife. Like what the hell? You think my dad chee-ko-pek (however you spell it) uh? Marry young girls? Kambeng biri biri betol. And worse, he works like a sloth. I think sloth work even faster than him. And no I’m not degrading him or anything, but seriously, he typed using one finger. One finger you know. There I was sitting in front of him, fighting the urge to ask him “ eh, you want me to help you type or not?”. He was that slow lah. Tsk.
But then, he wasn’t really to be blame. I was already cranky in the morning. It’s either I woke up at the wrong side of the bed or maybe it’s because I received this one sms in the morning. After reading it, it makes me wonder where I really stand in his heart. I don’t know but somehow get this feeling that he only sms me when he have nothing to do. Sigh.
Oh well, I’m trying my best not to give a damn about this thing. All I know is that I’m going off soon. Woots. Tomorrow I’m going to drop by the cca booth and I’m going to squeeze each and every one of the kambengs tightly. I’ll make sure I give ain a really wet kiss cause I know I’m gonna miss her sarcasm a lot. Hehe =)
And alhamdulilah, my doa came true. I’ll be going to my uncle’s wedding ceremony. Though a little bittersweet, I can’t thank Him enough for this. Thank you so much, God. Thank you so much.
My heart is thumping really loudly right now. I’m having cold sweats and I without a doubt, have trouble stopping my body from trembling. I need a hug, just a hug from someone who truly cares. I need my kambengs. Just one hug from each of them will do. They will make me feel ok. They always make me feel ok. I need to hug my mum, but im scared to hug her. She don’t do hugs, so to expect her to hug me is definitely a nay nay.
I need to do this for myself.
I need to do this for myself. I need to do this for myself.
*Come on everyone, chant along with me*
I need to this for myself.
I need to this for myself…
Edit// I already had a dose of suelala and ain just now. I’m ok. Still chanting that “i need to do this for myself thingy” though. Haha
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It’s only the first day of SIP and I’m already this fatigue. And the sad thing, I did nothing for the whole day. I just sat at the lab, wasting my time away with sufi. Luckily sufi proves himself to be a good companion, if not I would already die of boredom =)
So tomorrow it will be the same old routine. I need to reach school by 9 in the morning.. For some of you, waking up 9 is an easy task; but for me, it’s not since for the whole of last month at around this timing, I was busy snoring away on my super comfy bed. Heh.
And I know this post seems to be of no use but I just feel like typing this out just to tell the world that I’m still alive and kicking. And my dad like very kecoh right now, apparently one of the lady newcasters from RTM1 is wearing a scarf live on tv. It’s a rarity alright, but I’m just too tired to care. Haha. Mimpi indah y’all =)
I’m selfish, impatient, and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle…
But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best
-Marilyn Monroe
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7 things I hate doing or scare me:
- watching horror movies alone.
- waking up at 2 in the morning to the sound of loud booming thunders
- giving people wake up calls (hahaha)
- losing my faith in God
- death of love ones
- giving people false hopes
- clowns
7 things I like:
- acoustic guitars/ covers
- heartfelt letters/ poems
- drawing eyes; just eyes without the face, nose, ears etc
- watching people without them realizing it
- bikes
- thick eyelashes
- you?
7 important things in my room:
- laptop
- fan
- guitar
- pillows
- comforter
- closet
- xbox
7 random facts about me:
- extremely short
- I have a cheaper by half-a-dozen family which I am really proud of =)
- I cannot eat panadol extra. I will tremble really hard if I eat them
- I will have goosebumps each time I see spots, lots of dark colored spots. Show me beehives and the hair at the back of my neck will stand for the next 3 minutes.
- I have laughing lines which apparently make me look old/ “matured”.
- I’m no longer a fighter. I give up easily, instead.
- i want to be skinny lah.
7 things I plan to do before I die:
- get bike license
- learn how to play guitar
- save at least $100k in my bank
- send my parents to Haj
- make myself complete once again
- re-contact elias (impossible!!)
- become a mother
7 things I can do:
- twist my tongue
- 100-150 sit-ups in two minutes
- drink 2 bottles of coke zero/ coke light in one day
- type really fast
- read people’s mind ( no, seriously)
- I can cross my eyes
- break people’s heart
7 things I cant or will not do:
- give people long eye contact
- eat lard
- wink my left eye
- hate people for too long
- back stabbing own friends just to get what I want
- become a third person in a relationship.
- hug a clown
7 things I say the most:
- bacen btol
- kambeng biri biri
- oh really?
- siak uh (pardon my language)
- ah yerlahtu
- heh
- sigh
7 celeb crushes:
- adam brody
- adam Levine
- james mcvoy
- yuliya olegovna volkova
- chris brown
- ryan gosling
- keisha buchanan
Ok dah. I’m going out now. Take care people =)
I’m really tempted to do so.
Maybe perhaps, tonight I will.
Now hush hush, world.
Play pretend you see or hear nothing.
