We’ll skip the goodbyes.

And so Friday was his passing out parade. I went there with Nisa. Once we reached the police academy, nisa went with Din’s family whereas for me, I went with his family.

Everything was kinda hectic at first. Things weren’t preplanned so I have no idea where to go/ how to contact his family members. All I had was his brother’s hp number. Call here, call there. Talk to his mum/ bro via phone, wait long long and then all of us (me, his mum, his 2 bros, his sis and family) finally met up.

You have no idea how awkward and out of place I felt at that point of time. The only person that I am close to is atul, his youngest brother. But thank God things change soon after. I had a couple of laugh with his sis and his mum. And somehow, in one of the conversations, I found out that his mum used to be in NPCC. She held one of the important positions in her cadet. Woah. I was amazed of cause. She looks so dainty and sweet. If not for that conversation, till now I have no idea that his mum knows how to kick some ass too. Heh.

Cut story short, everything was beautiful and heart warming. All throughout the ceremony, my hair stood at it ends. No, not because there’s ghost. I just can’t help it but to be so proud of him. Close to four months has passed since he went in. Time really passes by that fast huh?

And my heart was beating so fast. My palms were super duper sweaty. I was so excited to meet my policeman but at the same time, I was sooooo nervous. I don’t know why, man. Heh.

I didn’t get to take a lot of pictures though. Only a few. My phone cam sucks lah. But then, I did manage to take this one picture; it’s one my favorite picture of us, so far. Heh. Try to figure out which one ok?

F’an with “dahlil” (inside joke). Heh.

Heee. My face like chipmunk.

 So how figure it out already? Hee

F’an nearly got into an accident yesterday.

I knew that something was amiss the moment I saw him. Both his eyes were red. At first I thought he was sleepy. I was wrong cause’ he told me that while he was on the way back home from his kompang performance, he nearly got hit by a car

I couldn’t help it but to gasp out loud. Early in the morning, F’an saw an accident involving a traffic police. I was in NYP, watching amaliah dance performance when I suddenly got a call from him. From his voice, I could tell that he was trembling. At that point of time, I wished so hard that I could just be with him =(

 And then this happened. He told me that it may be due to the”badi of that morning accident”. I don’t know how to explain this in english, so lets just say it has got something to do with the earlier accident. It’s not a good thing, trust me.

Oddly though, for the past few days, the both of us have been having a bad feeling that something bad is going to happen. “ tak sedap hati”. Something is definitely bothering us but we just couldn’t put our fingers to what exactly that something is. Now we finally know why.

Sigh.

I can shed a tear just thinking about it. He could have been hurt yesterday or worse? Only God knows how badly I’m trying to shrug these awful thoughts off.

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No one really knows this, but this could be one of my best relationships yet. Cliché I know but really, this time round, you have no idea how blessed I am right now.

One thing I that I really love about this relationship is that we both never fail to remind each other to solat and tawakal. All throughout my life, I have never been in this kind of relationships. I’m not saying anything bad about my past, but really, this is the first time I’ve been with someone who brings me a step closer to God. Each time I find myself falling back into my old bad habits, F’an gave me a reason to why I shouldn’t.

I don’t want to ever lose this rainbow. Not now, not ever. I know nothing last, but I pray hard that whatever we’re having now is something that’s worth a lifetime.

Thank you baby.

Thank you for just being here with me now.

Ilyvm.

P.s: I’ve met his mother. My God, she’s gorgeous.